divorce difficulties.... | greengal777's Blog

Had a pretty rough weekend. I am feeling the pressure of the divorce  and sale of house looming. I still haven't got a job neither have I got any unemployment insurance benefits. The powers that be are still deciding if I am worthy of them. I am very short of cash and being tight with my budget. I maybe loosing the pc soon because it is tough to afford the  monthly internet costs. I am going to two different food banks every couple of months and it is still hard to afford much fruit and veggies. My girls are really upset that my ex and I haven't got back together( of course they think this) and as well that the house will be sold soon. It hurts me so much. I feel like such an awful person. I feel so terribly guilty that I have failed my daughters especially. I guess I didn't try hard enough to make this marriage work. I look at my brothers and my sister with their jobs that make them generally happy and moderately well off  and their cars and nice houses and I feel terribly out of place. We got together on Sat. for a family get together now that my parents are back from Fla. and I felt so uncomfortable. I talked a bit and had something to eat with them and played with my younger brother's little girls a bit but generally I felt like I was missing something..... I had to go outside and just sit by myself because I felt so much on the verge of tears.... To my dear girls.. I say I 'm sorry I messed up your fairly okay life.... I don't know how thing s will go and what will happen....I can't see the end... and feel like I'v e gone too far down this road to turn back....

Anybody got any ideas...comments I would appreciate them.

thanks,GG777